So, here we are, a week into the new year. I donāt do resolutions, I know myself well enough to know thatās pointless. I have, however, decided to pick a theme. Basically an idea, or motivator of sorts, to keep in mind and use to guide my decisions this year. Theme for this year is Just Do It (to steal from Nike). This year the idea is to be more active in my pursuits, to take action to get where I want to be.
In that light, Iāve made some related decisions in what I want to do this year, both long term things that I want to start this year, as well as things I want to accomplish. Most of the stuff I canāt, or rather wonāt, talk about just yet. But I hope to provide further updates soon.
I also have some stuff that I will talk about. First of that being this blog. It took way longer than expected to fix the image issue I was having. This was mostly my own problem because I let it lie for too long while it, in the end, turned out to be a relatively simple fix. After it got fixed I did one of the photo posts I said I would and then left it again. Putting pics together for the August photo post was annoying the crap out of me, so I just sorta stopped.
To prevent shit like that from making me stop blogging again, Iām not scheduling anything anymore. No more āIām going to do this on a weekly basisā or āevery month Iām gonnaā¦ā or even non-committal shit like āI plan to regularlyā¦ā Iām not planning anything any more in regards to the blog. I still have a lot of things in my head that I wanna post, but Iām just gonna do whatever comes up, whenever I want to. Thereās already enough shit in life that you have to do, I donāt want this blog to be one of those things. After all, I have this website to have fun with and to make a record of who I am and what I like. If it becomes a chore, itāll loose all life it has.
Something else I think I havenāt mentioned here yet is Milo. Milo is my new cat, whom I got from the shelter on October 22. Heās a young boy of almost two (in March) and heās almost the complete opposite of Monkey. Heās playful, and active and a bit of a talker. Monkey only makes a noise when he really wants to go outside and I donāt respond fast enough. Milo opens his mouth a lot more, and when he does the most adorable little shriek comes out. Itās almost like a frigginā baby bird going meeeeep! The shelter named him Bo, which is stupid, so I renamed him. But, in keeping with tradition I kept (most of) his shelter name as part of his name.
So, without further ado, meet Milo Beauregard Gibbs:
Monkey and Milo are getting along pretty well. Milo wants to play with Monk but heās not really into that. They do chase each other around (in mostly good fun), though. This usually starts with Milo approaching Monkey to sniff at him or invite him to play and then Monkey does this hissy fit kinda thing where he yowls a bit and waves his paw around. Milo the backs off a bit and seconds later theyāll be chasing each other around the house.
He also loves feather teasers, so much so, even, that the one I had is almost dead already. So I bought three new ones right away to get a bit of a supply. And today the laser pointer I ordered came in. Tried it on him, he went insane for it š
In comparison, Monkey ignored it and pointedly reminded me that he knows Iām the one controlling the toys so heās not gonna waste his energy on that, thank you very much. (related sidenote: Monkey has very expressive eyes).
Tomorrow Milo gets to go outside for the first time since I got him. I kept him inside a little longer than I normally would because of New Yearās and the fireworks and such. I hope he likes it, he tends to still be a little skittish with loud noises or big/tall objects/people although heās progressed heaps in that since he came. The first week he would hide under the bed every time I walked through the house. He still runs when he gets spooked, but now he almost right away comes back out from wherever he runs to, to check out what happened.
In short, heās a cool cat š
Other stuffā¦ ehā¦ Work is going well I guess. I applied for a trainer/coach position within my department, got through the initial interview with flying colors and got to do an assessment. I felt pretty good about that, the tests were easy and the talk with the counselor about work and ambitions and what type of person I was went well too, at least I thought so. The role play situation went less well. Both because I hate role play situations, and because I found the set-up they had for it not relevant to what actually goes on at my job. All in all, I had a good feeling about it.
The result came in a week later, and I got a negative result. They thought I would not be suitable for the position because, in a nut shell, I ām not social enough, and thatās not fixableā¦ Right. I was fuming for two days. Thereās a core of truth in the report. Yes, I am an introvert, I told him so, but that does not mean Iām antisocial, it just means that interaction with people costs energy (versus giving me energy). I know this of myself so I take precautions. This is the reason I donāt work on Wednesdays so I have a day in the middle to recharge. Also, social interaction has been difficult for me in the past. I used to be more shy but this is something Iāve learned to overcome for a large part. Especially since I started working at my current job Iāve learned so much about interacting with people and have grown so much in that regard.
So, back to the report, I felt as if it were a snap shop of me three years ago, give or take. I discussed it with my supervisor and some other people later on, and they all were surprised by it. They saw the core of truth that was in there, but the extent of itā¦
Regardless of that, though, the assessment is final so it meant I was out of the application procedure. So Iām still doing what I did before, and thatās not a bad thing either. I love writing so the e-mail and letter thing is a good job for me to have. Iām doing a lot of letters these days, more so than e-mail, and Iām really enjoying that. However, I will be looking for opportunities to move forward or at least expand my skill set. For the moment still preferably within the same company.
I think this is more than long enough for a first blog of 2012. I hope to do a post to catch up on my booklist and 101 list. Booklist definitely because I failed my target so very much I think it might be the lowest in years. The 101 listā¦ Meh, I think it needs revising first. Iām having second thoughts on a lot of the goals and I think the sheer amount of them, even keeping in mind the long time one has for it (1001 days) it might be too many things for a person with an attention span like mine.
The cemetery where my grandparents are buried held a remembrance event last night. They covered all the paths and walkways on both sides with tealights in jars and invited people to come and bring a light to their loved ones there. They also offered warm drinks and cake because winter’s nights are cold. If you didn’t have a candle or light, you could get one there. And there was also a rack to place lights on if your loved one wasn’t buried here. All of this free of charge, just asking for a donation if you could.
I went with Mom and my Aunt and were planning to visit not just my grandparents, but also my grandfather’s parents, and my grandfather’s brother and his wife. We had planned in advance, so I had bought two lanterns while I was at Ikea getting my plates. My aunt had also bought a lantern so we had one for each grave. And earlier in the day, Mom and I had stopped at the florist for some pretty plants that can withstand the winter.
